Sad news....

We found out a couple of weeks ago that Home Lumber is closing it's doors. With thes harp decline in the housing market, they have not been able to recover. The opportunity came for them to be bought out, and they seized it, after 45 years in business. Operations and the continuing lumber business are being taken over by Truss Manufacturing Co. Joe was a lucky one. He was offered and accepted continued employment with the new company. However, nearly all the other employees, Joe's friends whom he has worked side by side for almost 4 years, all lost their jobs.

We are thankful he still has a job--there is but one catch. The new location will be in Westfield. Approximately 45 minutes north! He will also loose his company truck tomorrow. This all means that in the next few weeks we need to find the money and the time to buy a second car for him to once again start commuting.

This all makes me so angry....I am trying so hard to understand why this would happen.
I wish for simplicity and being settled. I am wondering why we always seem to make the wrong decision, no matter how right it seems to us. Should we have not made these decisions....? I am tired of thinking what if...? It is getting so hard to be the happy, funny one. Is my fake smiling wearing off.....